*parson kai*

Who knew that having a baby could be so amazing?! Ok so I am sure anyone who has had a baby knows this, but I had no clue! I love this little stink so so so much. Everyone told me how worth all the junk I went through being pregnant would be once he got here, and to be honest, I kind of wanted to slap anyone who told me that. Did they not understand how sick I was? Pretty sure when you adopt a kid you still get a baby in your arms and you don't have to deal with pregnancy. Thats what I was planning for the next time around because I sure as heck was never going to be pregnant again........ that idea has all changed. I have never had such an amazing moment in my life as I did when I saw Pars for the first time. It was magical..... sounds cheesy, but thats what I have become in the few weeks I have been a mom..... a big fat emotional cheese ball. I look back at all the bad days I had being pregnant and then I look at my little guy and I would go through those days a million times over to be able to have him in my life. It was so worth it and I feel so guilty thinking about how rude I was about being pregnant. I look at him and just tell him how sorry I am for being so stupid and complaining all the time..... he was worth every stinking minute of it. It's not that I forgot how awful I felt....... I don't think I will ever forget! But now I know just how worth it making him was! My heart truly does not live inside of me anymore, it lays in my little boys arms...... I don't think I have ever believed in love at first sight but that changed the second I saw Parson! Holy cow, I can't even begin to explain or put into words just how much I love him and how happy I am that he has joined Paul and I to make our new little family. We love you so much little guy! Thank you thank you thank you for letting us be your parents!!!