Down South

Blogging is hard for me, I wish I had more..... side note, I can never ever think of the words I want to use when I want to use them....... so frustrating.......... can I blame pregnancy or motherhood for my mushy brain?   Anyway I wish I had more..... you know what I am trying to say right?  Well we now live in Pigeon Forge Tennessee...... CRAZY...... It was supposed to be just for the summer, but we recently found out that we will be here for at least a year.... wow what a surprise, and now that I am enjoying myself a little more out here I can happily say that I am excited about it.  We are looking for a house to rent so I can get out of this isolating cabin in the woods.... whew that will be such a relief!  We have had a pretty fun summer so far!  We have been to North Carolina, Nashville, and I got to go home for a few weeks! Also, my little nugget is 6 months old! :(  Where has the time gone?  He is growing up too fast!  He is such a pleasant little stink, but he definitely has a stubborn streak, hmmm?  We love him so much!  We haven't had his 6 month appt yet, but at his 4 month check up he weighed 12lbs 12oz.... Pretty small little thing which I am quite proud of, I never thought I would produce something so little and I kind of like it! He is the best thing about our life by far!  What was life like without you tuna?  I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU!   (gusto, thats a word close to the word I would have liked to use at the beginning but still not the word...... 5 hours later and still I cant think of the word I want, blah!)

(update: the word I was looking for was motivation.... it took me a day and a half to figure that out....wow)

 His first cereal experience

 His first ocean experience.  Emerald Isle, NC

 Pepsi was invented here

 I love these two more than life itself!

 Well hello there....

 So smiley!

Hike with the view of the smokies.... Gatlinburg, TN

*parson kai*

Who knew that having a baby could be so amazing?! Ok so I am sure anyone who has had a baby knows this, but I had no clue! I love this little stink so so so much. Everyone told me how worth all the junk I went through being pregnant would be once he got here, and to be honest, I kind of wanted to slap anyone who told me that. Did they not understand how sick I was? Pretty sure when you adopt a kid you still get a baby in your arms and you don't have to deal with pregnancy. Thats what I was planning for the next time around because I sure as heck was never going to be pregnant again........ that idea has all changed. I have never had such an amazing moment in my life as I did when I saw Pars for the first time. It was magical..... sounds cheesy, but thats what I have become in the few weeks I have been a mom..... a big fat emotional cheese ball. I look back at all the bad days I had being pregnant and then I look at my little guy and I would go through those days a million times over to be able to have him in my life. It was so worth it and I feel so guilty thinking about how rude I was about being pregnant. I look at him and just tell him how sorry I am for being so stupid and complaining all the time..... he was worth every stinking minute of it. It's not that I forgot how awful I felt....... I don't think I will ever forget! But now I know just how worth it making him was! My heart truly does not live inside of me anymore, it lays in my little boys arms...... I don't think I have ever believed in love at first sight but that changed the second I saw Parson! Holy cow, I can't even begin to explain or put into words just how much I love him and how happy I am that he has joined Paul and I to make our new little family. We love you so much little guy! Thank you thank you thank you for letting us be your parents!!!